Friday, August 26, 2016

The Weeping Soul

Eyes looking at the sky, 
when, with a blast of trumpets, 
they let the falcon fly.

Gucha 2016

The trumpet is my favorite musical instrument. In fact, the trumpet is much more than a musical instrument. It's sound resembles the weeping of the human soul. It is originally used to dispel evil spirits and as a signaling device in battles. The sound of trumpet was heard for thousands of years. It is played only by males.

Gucha 2016

I was born just like any other human being with a unique destiny designed just for me. I was born to be free expression of the spirit with natural abilities and talents connecting me to success and happiness.

Slowly as I grew up I found myself in the chaos of parent disagreements. When I was 5 they put me into kindergarten where my natural destiny became challenged. I was slowly disconnected from the spirit by daily routines. 

At 7, I've cried so hard when I'd found out that I have to go to school every day. I could not understood the reason for that stupidity. I was innocent, naive and too young to understand the system, I had no choice but to follow the rules set out in front of me. 

I lived a life where is exactly set when to eat, sleep, study and play. Little by little my original and natural individuality was gone as teachers asked me to memorize and repeat various subjects. My parents enforced the rules and they believed more to neighbours than to myself. 

Gucha 2016

By the age of 20 I become a puppet on a string; I got the wrong job, wrong relationship and shitty social life. Whole my life was driven by obedience and discipline in the system where "what will other say" was a main concern.

I was living a half-asleep just like everyone else. At 29 I got my own child and I applied the same rules I was subjected to... 
Man is immersed in dreams... He lives in sleep… He is a machine. He cannot stop the flow of his thoughts, he cannot control his imagination, his emotions, his attention... He does not see the real world. The real world is hidden from him by the wall of imagination. - Gurdjieff
We were built to be light, yet we live in darkness.

This is the truth of the weeping soul.

Live is Life

What happens to you when you go on vacation? 

The rest and relaxation, a sense of adventure, willingness to try new things, and wish to make the most of every minute. You laugh harder, love more, and live freer. 

So ask yourself, why is it that you don’t have these passions in your everyday life?

I’m on vacation every single day! 

I do work in the office but I don't put my entire attention there. My days are great source of adventure choice, freedom, joy, peace, creativity. Today I went for a walk at High Park, yesterday I had a coffee at Starbucks and two days ago I cut my hair. 

I keep inner balance, I am releasing my bitterness and I forgive others.   

Yes, I'm changing. I embrace the change. One thing’s true in this life, we all change. Change is the only constant. Nothing within me is truly the same as a month ago, just as nothing around me is like a month ago. 

I love life, I love the world! Let's get together and change it one hug at a time! Burn some incense, do yoga! Save trees, save animals, eat organic, shit in the toalets!

I love spirituality, the light and happines, it’s good for my heart, which opens once a year. Most of the time it is closed due to painful things. But pain is not so bad! And good isn't good sometimes, bad is good, war is peace, freedom is slavery. Awareness grows!

Hey, that brings me: one time, (the days of dissolution of my marriage, the fucking divorce) I went through some painful things — I tried to be an observer in Higher Self (capital letters) not just in this lowercase self shit. I was the Higher Self, the observer, and I did breathe. Yes, prana when things went tough. I've heard that breathing is healthy. Particularly breathing in and out, it went so well for me. I'm grateful for it. Really.

Oh yes, I did the one thousand five hundred sixty seventh practice this morning, and, of course, I did meditation. Yoga and meditation is good - it’s not just for the body, it helps me get sober from last night — and to be present and remember that my life is full of abundance.

I am falling in love with where I am. I surrender to the present moment. I like it. I'm practicing it. 

The present moment! It's great. 

Yoga is so important to me. It takes me away from the computer screen. Yoga means ONION or UNION. It really means anything you want. It teaches us to embrace everyone flexing our hamstrings with love and respect.

Am I offending 80% of spiritual new-agers? Good. 

Go find another blog to read for free. This blog is about genuine spiritual wisdom. I don’t even like the word “spiritual”. It’s about life - you know, what happens when you discover that you are nothing but an asshole.

Thumbs up? Please add your bullshit wisdom in the comments section bellow. Thank you. 

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Sometimes you have to be rude

Guys, if you’re tired of watching into your phone waiting to see her message, scratching your head in confusion, read on. This is what I have learned from my own mistakes, and from observations I've made along the way. Regardless, I'm telling you this for sole intention to help you.

Two days ago, in the morning, around 8 AM I received a message from the Stranger (do you remember her?). She said briefly "Hi Zee". I replied in 10 minutes, sent her my photo and called her for a coffee. 

She did not respond at all. Obviously, she is entertaining someone else and it is completely uninterested in me. So, why she is texting me?

This is the fourth time she is sending me a message on which I reply and then she ignores me. So yesterday afternoon I sent her the following message:

In the perfect world I would always be nice. But this isn't a perfect world, and I don't allow others to play with me... 

I have some bad habits. One of those stupid habits is to say "I am sorry" for everything. 

"I am sorry" is supposed to be an apology, an expression of remorse for something I've done wrong. Something that occasionally serves as my request for forgiveness.

I apologize before giving my opinions.

I basically apologize before speaking up in any situation.

I apologize on airplanes when I bump elbows with the passenger next to me.

I am asking permission to order food or to get the bill.

And all that is okay. But this... sending around random text messages and then "forgetting" to text back deserves an appropriate answer. I won't apologize for my rudeness.

What exactly should I apologize for?

For having a voice? For stopping being a puppet?


Guys, you are welcome.

I'm just being honest.

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

This too shall pass

Hello, my friend. Here we are. You and me, on the last page. By the time you read this post, my memory of you will be gone. So know that I live well and I'm happy. And above all else, know that I'm gone forever. You'll be coming back on these pages for awhile. And then you'll stop doing that. That's what you should do. Don't be alone! Kiss... goodbye.
There is room enough in my heart to love an infinite amount of people until the end of time. But. I can only afford to give my thoughts, time and energy to those who return my love, multiply it and give me the wings. 
In our lives, people will come and go, and they will leave wounds. In order to release yourself, you must learn to love yourself. To breathe. To stop hoping. Please be yourself, cold and calculated, and forget all this...
At the end of the day, let there be no excuses, no explanations, no regrets. 

Wednesday, August 24, 2016, seven days before vacation. 

A long hot summer days continue. I woke up at 5:30 a.m. and I will start the yoga practice soon. I feel great. Yesterday I worked from home, my daughter visited me and we had dinner together. We talked about our lack of communication, things are improving...

Life is too short for drama, insecurities and "what will people think about me".

Life goes on...

I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing.
- Anais Nin

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

one-night stand

A single performance of a basic human delusion.

Something interesting in CINEPLEX movie theaters near you. We'll do our best to give you current information and the latest updates. We’re mainly focusing on exciting releases, the 2016 movies you should definitely see it! 

One Night Stand is a 2016 Canadian funny drama film written by the Universe at large and directed by human insecurity. It features a Dreamer in the lead role. Principal photography was wrapped up in 4 days and filming locations include Toronto's central park and local suburbs. The film was released on 22 August 2016.

The plot of the movie is simple, just like Matthew 7:7 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

She searched for him and she found him. 

This one was going to be the perfect one-night stand, she thought. The man was good looking. He was a strong man. He was a feminist. Perfect. He had all her check marks, and she wasn’t worried.. she could like him for an evening.

She wanted the one-night stand for different reasons, which lies between her busy schedule at work and gym exercises, responsibilities towards kids and negligence of her ex. 

Exploring her sexuality was not main agenda although she had read 50 Shades of Gray and she clearly wanted the fulfillment of her sexual desire without disturbing her separation agreement and family relationships. 

The movie suggests that women who feel sexually insecure or unfulfilled should seek out one-night stands for personal growth and fulfillment.  

She was emotionally unavailable. She wanted to keep it light, have fun for a night and not attach any label to what she is doing. In the morning she felt like a shit, so disgusted, her needs were not met.

It is a perfect twist.... and audience is left wondering: ... Why or Why not?

The trailer made you wish to watch the movie with open eyes and you're not the only one. Its YouTube page shows that in the audiences there are lot of single mums with wet pussies desiring the one-night stands. It is not just propaganda, 1400 thumbs up compared to only 12 thumbs down. 

The movie makes this hot summer even hotter.