Sunday, May 29, 2016

You're not gonna like this

Our main problem is the aimlessness of our life. We have nothing to structure our time, nothing to live for, nothing to die for. We are at loose end, trying one thing after another.

Having said that I must add I have one thing going for me in spite of this aimlessness, and that is a feeling of surprise. I've always being gifted with astonishment of being born in this world, at this time, with an observer attitude without having to worry about what is happening.

The lack of meaning in my life is replaced with this honest observation and laughter. I clearly see that in our life nothing has any value, unless we imagine it does. And that is so hilarious. 

People don't have a life of their own, they live for their children. I'm tired of all this bullshit I have to listen to about children. That's all you hear about, everywhere... Raising children is getting entirely too much attention.  

Regardless if you're married or divorced, single dads or working moms, who think you're such fucking hero for raising your kids, aren't going to like this post, but somebody's have to tell you for your own good: your children are overrated and overvalued, and you've turned your life in a wrong way. Eventually you'll be disappointed...

You live for and instead of your kids, and it's not healthy. And don't give me all that shit, "Well, I love my children." Fuck you! Everybody loves their children; the love doesn't make you special. 

What I'm talking about is this constant, mindless concerns, this neurotic fixation that suggests that somehow everything has to revolve around the lives of children. It's completely insane way of living.
Today's kids are way too soft. For one thing, there's too much emphasis on safety and safety equipment: childproof medicine bottles, fireproof pajamas, child restraints, car seats. And helmets! Bicycle, baseball, skateboard, scooter helmets. Kids have to wear helmets now for everything but jerking off. Grown-ups have taken all the fun out of being a kid. What's happened is, these baby boomers, these soft, fruity baby boomers, have raised an entire generation of soft, fruity kids who aren't even allowed hazardous toys, for Chrissakes! - George Carlin
Stop dragging your kids all over town in search of empty, meaningless activities to kill time: scouts, swimming, soccer, karate, piano, tennis, bale, salsa, and who knows what else. It's absurd, just for a moment stop it. You want to know how to help your kids? Leave them the fuck alone! 

Saturday, May 28, 2016

Terror of psychotic sheep

Very recently, people of a small and quiet village in Wales have complained that they live in fear of a flock of sheep which, as they said, causing the real chaos.

The villagers told reporters that the sheep suddenly started behaving strangely, running before cars, going into the yard and even in the houses. One sheep was able to get into bedroom of one villager and made ​​a real mess.

A representative of the local community Ioan Richard called the police after they received complaints on the behavior of sheep.

Police determined that near the village of abandoned illegal "farm" of marijuana where, as they said, the sheep grazed marijuana, which was caused their strange behavior.

That is the news of the week... The Stoned Sheep High On Cannabis. :) 

Marijuana indeed can make some people – and sheep - do crazy things. I do crazy things without it. In the last couple of weeks my life returned as it used to be. I go out often, stay late, drink beer and spend money. I don't complain, just enjoying the weather.

My relationship with the Angel is not so good. We are distant, we text sporadically and we talk on the phone periodically. Haha maybe this is exactly what I need at a moment. Last week I met a woman, lets call her Mambo Italiano and I like her but she is a single mother having a 5 years old son, she has no time to go out, she cannot date. Too bad. 

You know what, my dear readers, two days ago I had fight with my ex-wife. After 22 years of marriage and listening to her bullshit stories about my control and her dependence, now, after 3 years since we are divorced she texted me the same shit. I told her to delete my phone number from her phone. The ex is a ex for a reason.

It is exciting time for my blog. 1000th post is coming and I need to prepare something nice. I did this video yesterday as an introduction to my blog. Please watched it, it is interesting. 

Thursday, May 26, 2016

What to expect in your 50s

- She's watching you and she juggles her breast, go over there. 
- Let her be, I'll not approach her. My girlfriend is at home sleeping, it is not nice to her, and I have to get up early. I'm going fishing tomorrow. I'm gonna empty the fucking lake.

The humanity can't stop its struggle against aging. You fight against nature for decades and centuries without hope to win. You are going to lose and end up muddy, humiliated and without meaning. 

Desperate attempts to use creams, start running, going to gym, buy a new car and find a new, younger woman will only prolong the inevitable. As it should. 

You had your youth, you had a good days, if you played it bad... so what? Fuck off! 

The aging process does not begin at birth, but somewhere in the middle of thirties, depending on whether you're made out of less or more shitty material. The aging is most visible in 50s. People have anguish over their 30th birthday and try to hide their 40th, it is with the 50th that most start to actually see themselves as beginning to be old. Why? I'll tell you...

In 50s you're gaining weight like never before. Except for a handful of people whose metabolism is so fast that it can neutralize the fatty steak eaten in five afternoon with a bottle of wine, all others are sentenced to gain weight - this is the first sign of 50s. 

It comes with that age, marriage, divorce, children and work... you're purely destined to became a cynic. You start strongly believing that people are motivated by their self-interest rather than acting for unselfish reasons. But you fail to see that your own future is more important than the moment in which you are... and that is a definite sign of 50s.

You used to wait for the weekend so eagerly; you used to put on the most beautiful shirt heading straight after work to a bar to meet friends and to drink. It takes 50 years and the desire for the Friday night out gradually atrophies, you find yourself at the place when your partner must force you to get out of the couch. Rarely she succeed. You just have no interest to mingle with the crowd, to pay for a beer six times over the price and to wait your turn to pee.

And if eventually you went out to a bar and an opportunity arise, well, in 50s you'll refuse good looking woman because you have a girlfriend, you're married or you are just not into the mood. The refusal of a the OPPORTUNITY just means your balls hang too low. There is nothing wrong there, on the contrary... you are ready for meditation.

I know, in 50s things are changed, in your 20s you jerked off on Monica Bellucci but now when you see her on TV you change the channel, spontaneously you gave up wanking. That is a clinical evidence of aging. That's how it goes.

You are in 50s, start thinking how much time is left rather than how much has passed.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

19th yoga practice of this month

I don’t have the answers, about yoga, divorce, dating, losing belly or why are women over 45 losing interest for sex... and I get irritated when I read other people putting themselves out there as self-help gurus, therapists, or doctors. 

However, I have learned one thing, daily practice of ashtanga yoga is what counts. I have started practicing yoga exactly 10 years ago. At present I am not going to yoga studios I maintain home practice only.

I am now an old guy, precisely 51 years old. I've been writing here how to get into a regular practice of home yoga for almost three years. It's my main saying – the core message that underlies everything else I write here.

Want to have more courage in life? Do more yoga. Want to find your true self? Try adding yoga to your day. And not just any yoga, ashtanga yoga at home – the yoga with set you into strict rules. Get on your yoga mat, get off the couch, and start by paying attention to what your body really wants.
Of course, it doesn't have to be yoga. Outside in the real world there is an epidemic of large bellies, large fat stomachs. Do you see it, do you recognize it in your own life? Go to gym, do some heavy lifting and take care of yourself. Dance! Whatever. There are other ways to build courage, creativity, curiosity, connection and purpose. Yoga is the way that works for me.

The 19th practice in May starts now... Happy Tuesday. :-)

May 23, 2016

Monday, May 23, 2016

The spiritual life of a snowflake

Begin doing what you want to do now. 
We are not living in eternity. 
We have only this moment, 
sparkling like a star in our hand and 
melting like a snowflake... 
- Francis Bacon

The world is artificial, it is not real. It is your own self created projection, an interactive game. It is nothing but your own imagination. The world is ever-changing, ever new, but it is nothing but the thoughts of the ancient people, the ones who were here before you.

Sound fills the entire space, similarly your knowledge of existence fills everything. 

To feel that you are an individual is itself a conditioning and you who wants to break the conditioning is also imaginary.

The knowledge 'I am' is the first ignorance and whatever knowledge you acquire with it is also ignorance.

Let anything come and go, you are only the witness. Don't get wounded in this melting process! 

Understand what this principle 'I am' is and you are finished. The 'I am' is the first and last bondage and it is nothing but imagination. It is not personal, it is universal, but the concept, nevertheless.

People who depend on the intellect only are swinging like a pendulum in spiritual matters. Study and intellectual understanding will not help you. Discipline, meditation and other practices don't mean anything. There is no question of any aids or discipline - by your firm conviction to discover how you know yourself to be, you will discover it. 

It is so simple, no intellectual wrestling, just be still. Don't raise or search for questions or answers. Don't employ the words. Just observe - how you know yourself?

All worries are due to intellect, the realization that your 'I am' is imagination happens only in the state which is beyond thought process. Let it happen.

The world is like a movie and whatever is played is not you, you are just observer; your self-realization is not in the movie. It cannot be, so stand as you are. When you have no feeling of happiness or misery and no feeling of individuality, of 'I am' sense, you will realize that there is no "I"... it is/was/will be a cheat, forever.