Things are going nowhere.
...with the greater and greater speed.
As I sit with my coffee this morning, reflecting upon my life and recent events I'm writing this post, I feel a sense of sadness. I'm not happy in my relationship with the Angel and I'm looking for a way out. I'm feeling the warning signs of a breakup.
People stay in relationships that have passed their expiration date for many reasons, such as a fear of being alone or due to accustomed feelings. Whatever the reason if in my heart I know the connection isn’t strong, then breaking up should be an option. There are things and this constant arguing which shows a poor communication between the Angel and me so, is it time to call it quits?
I have come to the conclusion that our relationship should be over. I am presently very much unhappy and irritated. This period of dissatisfaction, irritation, anger, frustration, hurt and disappointments increase every day.
A breakup is always a process with a beginning, a middle and an end - I know it when I look back. Statements like "I'm breaking up" or "I don't love you any more" are likely to have risen out of a period of time and not of sudden realization - even if it seems like that.
Can a relationship recover from this kind of unhappiness?
It’s possible, but not without some conversation about where we’re headed. And the conversation with the Angel is impossible. She wants to feel me like a couple — and may even hope to share her vision for a future with me — but I need time to wrestle with doubts and issues. I, however, believe that our relationship has no real future and it’s time to free myself to meet someone who shares my vision of a healthy relationship.
Letting go of dead-end relationships is easy. Sometimes it’s the only way to embrace something better down the road. This is a signpost that I am looking for the nearest off-ramp.