Eyes looking at the sky,
when, with a blast of trumpets,
they let the falcon fly.
I was born just like any other human being with a unique destiny designed just for me. I was born to be free expression of the spirit with natural abilities and talents connecting me to success and happiness.
Slowly as I grew up I found myself in the chaos of parent disagreements. When I was 5 they put me into kindergarten where my natural destiny became challenged. I was slowly disconnected from the spirit by daily routines.
At 7, I've cried so hard when I'd found out that I have to go to school every day. I could not understood the reason for that stupidity. I was innocent, naive and too young to understand the system, I had no choice but to follow the rules set out in front of me.
I lived a life where is exactly set when to eat, sleep, study and play. Little by little my original and natural individuality was gone as teachers asked me to memorize and repeat various subjects. My parents enforced the rules and they believed more to neighbours than to myself.
By the age of 20 I become a puppet on a string; I got the wrong job, wrong relationship and shitty social life. Whole my life was driven by obedience and discipline in the system where "what will other say" was a main concern.
I was living a half-asleep just like everyone else. At 29 I got my own child and I applied the same rules I was subjected to...
Man is immersed in dreams... He lives in sleep… He is a machine. He cannot stop the flow of his thoughts, he cannot control his imagination, his emotions, his attention... He does not see the real world. The real world is hidden from him by the wall of imagination. - GurdjieffWe were built to be light, yet we live in darkness.
This is the truth of the weeping soul.