My form appeared like a dream to sentient beings who are like a dream. I taught them dreamlike teaching to attain dreamlike enlightenment. - Buddha
Most people no matter what they do, don’t have enough time to waste. Except me. I have so much time in my hands that I don't know what to do. Last night was the birthday party for my friend. The Stranger and I went to downtown Toronto club around 10:30 and we stayed until almost 2 am. We were dancing and enjoying.
Today is Saturday, the Stranger went home and right now, I have no clue what to do.
Maybe it is a time to become cynical and hypocritical. I could tell you to go to study philosophy or anthropology or something to pursue your dreams and when you succeed to get a degree in such subjects you will see you will never have enough money for daily living. That is the truth of our dreamlike existence. Following the heart is not always good thing.
Why I mentioned that? You see, from my early age I was told to pursue my dreams. I'm told that I can be whatever I want to be; a prince, policeman, firefighter or President, but then as I get older and get closer towards teen years I'm slowly programmed into believing that none of what I learned is possible. In my teens I was told to be more realistic.
Now, I'm reaching a point when I am able to admit to myself, “I’m happy with small things, I have no more expectations from life”. Well, this is a shocking realization. It’s hard to look at the life — at all of my work and effort and time and energy and hopes and dreams — and to face my emptiness in its cold and dark perspective.
It’s painful to say, - I don't want anything more. This should be it.
Because once you do that, once you acknowledge the end of longing for more, then you are faced with an inner urgency to stop doing something about it. When you finally realize you’re on the wrong path, lost in the dreamlike existence, you want to change course immediately and run with all your might, with arms spread open, in the right direction.
But what if you don’t know what the right direction is?
And then you read on the net... The world has changed, ladies and gentlemen. Today, there is another opportunity to fulfill the imagination of your dreamstate reality. There's no excuse to waste your time doing something you have no interest doing. If you're stuck look no further than towards your attitude.