So far, I had no enough sleep to recover from my trip and I'm struggling with 30 days yoga challenge. It will take awhile until I gain more strength. Thanksgiving Day is on Monday so there is a long weekend here in Canada. I'll use those non-working days to strengthen my yoga practice.
Every time after vacation, after my trip back home or Mexico vacation, I enter into state of silent depression, where I try to embrace my daily life slowly, claiming I need to “recover” from the exhausting trip I just had, but in truth it’s a lot more than that. I feel like I’m at the end of a journey, there is nothing to look forward to, pre-trip happiness is gone. It all ends with my wish to sleep a lot.
I feel that wherever I may go, nothing waits for me at the end of the journey. I do not know what I am and therefore I imagine myself to be what I am not. Hence desires and fear and overwhelming despair. And meaningless activities in order to escape boredom of daily life.
This is known as post-vacation blues and for me it is the same after every trip. I miss my relatives and friends I met, I miss the "nothing-to-worry" state of mind and things I did.